Update to my first entry (From my late blog Magick and Prayer)


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06/15/2020, 17:56 PM

Update to my first entry

So here’s what’s going on in my life right now. As I’ve stated before, Faith is not just a phrase I use to get attention or elevate myself. Faith is every fiber of my being. It is my reason for existence. It entails the direction of my life and every choice I make. It is the most important thing to me. I don’t take it lightly at all, and I guess that is why I stress over it so very much. 

I’ve been sitting quietly for some time just meditating on where my path is headed and I’ve been without a patron/deity for a long time. I’ve been waiting on a name. Just to clarify, I don’t want to choose my god I want to be chosen. That is how I came to find Morrigan, Eris, and Selene. And I really expected another goddess to come into my life. I was not expecting this guy to come knocking, although I should not have been surprised. 

A year or so ago I formally cut ties with the Christian Faith and I thought that would have been the end of it. But my brother sent me a simple meme, a picture that boiled my blood. It was in that picture and a few other equally small references that my mind shifted and I found my spirit honed in on Jesus and I was overwhelmed by His Light and the feeling of His love. In His energy I felt Pure Goodness, everything that I wanted in my life. Light, Love, Kindness. 

I wasn’t sure I wanted my life to go back towards Him, but it’s not Jesus that I came to distrust. He never angered me, He never betrayed me. It was His people, His church, His so called followers. And that set me on a journey of heavy thinking. Who was/is Jesus and what did/does He stand for?  He was the one who came into the world to walk amongst the humans. He never turned away anyone. I don’t think He would approve of the hate his people cause, the separation, the politics that they run His house with. I would like to think that He would be appalled about having His name drug through the mud. 

So last night I had a long talk with Jesus. I opened my heart and beared my soul. I approached Him with no fear, but sought him with my true self. No preconceived notions or ties that I was taught most of my life. I told Him that I seek to bring Love, Kindness, Gentleness, and Light to our world. I refuse to associate hate and intolerance with my Faith. I want to love like Christ loved. Unconditionally and without prejudice. 

So I guess my life has taken another surprising turn. One I never expected to happen again. I just hope I can stand on my legs and be true to my Faith and be everything that I’m supposed to be. In Light and Love, 

ME

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