(Don’t) Let It Go (from my late blog MagickandPrayer)


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04/23/2020, 17:16 PM

(Don’t) Let It Go

As my 6 yo and I were doing schoolwork in the kitchen, she and I broke out in song (trust me it’s not that unusual.  The song?  Show Yourself - Frozen 2. The first time that I heard those lyrics, I broke into embarrassing baby sobs. Today was no different, I burst into tears again. That song was written for me, about me. Well it could have been. 

I identified with Elsa from the moment I heard her story in 2013. A girl born into powers that people wanted her to hide. They told her that they were unnatural, wrong, and evil. I get it, I’ve been through the same. I knew since I was little that I was different. But I never thought anything of it until I was 16, then again in 2004. 

When I watched Frozen 2 and Elsa discovered that everything that she was looking for was already inside her and that she was the center/spirit, it was like Bang!  There I am again. I’ve been searching and searching for a Faith to belong to. A label. A box to fit in to. I can’t do that. I don’t want to fit into a group. I don’t want to change me to belong. I am Me, and in Me is everything that I need. Everything about me is natural and it’s true and it’s right. 

Show yourself lyrics 

I've never felt so certain
All my life I've been torn
But I'm here for a reason
Could it be the reason I was born?
I have always been so different
Normal rules did not apply
Is this the day?
Are you the way
I finally find out why?
Come, my darling, homeward bound
I am found
Show yourself
Step into your power
Throw yourself
Into something new
You are the one you've been waiting for
All of my life

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